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If you’ve read any number of young adult books, it comes as no surprise to find that there is often some kind of romantic plot/subplot within the text. Since I write YA books, there is some expectation of that in my stories as well. I plan to have (at least) one in my current project. I have my main character, A, and she is eventually going to wind up with boy Z.

Already I’ve got several little scenes of them falling for each other, but the more I thought about them riding off together at the end of the series, the more my gut was telling me something was off. I didn’t question if they would remain together (they definitely will), but I couldn’t see what their lives would be like at all.

I’m not one of those authors who knows the entire future of my characters post-book. I don’t really feel a need to know, but I do need whatever conclusion I give them in the book to feel right, to feel true. When I started digging through my own brain, I realized the problem I was having with A and Z wasn’t what was missing after the action of the books, but what was missing within the books.

I’ve never pictured A and Z kissing.

When I figured that out, other things became clear to me. They prefer to be touching if they can be, and hugging is their favorite. The love to laugh and banter, they help each other through trauma and pain, and by the end of the series they are deeply in love.

So why no kissing?

And then it was like a lightening bolt struck me on the head: A and Z are asexual. Everything fell into place when I used this word to describe them.

In case you don’t know, I am gray-sexual or gray-ace, which is under the umbrella of asexuality. (If you want more detailed info on what all of that means, click HERE.) But it had never, not once, occurred to me that my main character and her final love interest could possibly be ace. I’d considered it with other characters, but not them.

I had been taking the sexuality (implied or explicit) found in the majority of YA love stories and applying it to A and Z, expecting them to fall in line. But why should they?

It seems like such an easy and obvious conclusion to come to, considering I’m ace myself, but it took me a while. I’m glad my characters, or my inner ace, put up enough fuss to show me where I was going wrong with A and Z’s love story.

Hopefully I’ll get to share them, in all their ace glory, with you eventually.

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In the Shadow of Doubt

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I don’t know anyone who isn’t touched by the political and social turmoil going on in the country right now. For me, the disappointment and anger at the election, the subsequent awful things happening within our government, and the continual worry that marginalized people are not going to be protected have weighed heavy in my mind for months.

I’ve tried to be proactive about my worry: protesting, making calls and writing letters to my representatives, joining organizations that help marginalized people, donating when I can, being present at events to show support to people who need it.

The work of pushing back at all the bad I see is not that exhausting because being with other people who are also working to those ends is encouraging and invigorating (being an ambivert does have its advantages). But the worry, the mental strain, and the necessary constant vigilance is like air drying out clay, making me brittle and crumbly all around (shout out to Mad Eye Moody – no wonder he was a little cracked). All of this is in addition to my personal life, which has seen its fair share of extra stress lately. I already deal with anxiety, panic attacks, and depression, and the combined strain of everything near and far is making it difficult to keep it (me) together.

So how in the world am I supposed to write? This is a question I’ve seen many writers struggling with. And like many, I am in a valley, not on a mountaintop, when it comes to my relationship with writing. Which leads me to a scarier question:

Am I cut out to be a writer at all?

This valley that I mentioned, I feel like I’ve been in it for a while. If you name a method of writing, of ways to get words on the page, I’ve tried it. Nothing, literally not one of them, has stuck. Even in days of less stress and worry, I’m terrible about actually doing the work. Maybe it’s just that my life and my brain are too scattered and messy for anything resembling discipline, plans, and good habits.

Or maybe…maybe I just can’t hack it.

Maybe I’m not supposed to be a writer.

And that, my friends, is a terrible thought. If I’m not supposed to be a writer, why do I have stories and characters and scenes filling my brain when they get a chance? I may not have a great process that helps me fill blank pages, but planning what I’m going to write and creating characters and settings and plot lines is something I do all the time.

So I don’t think I could ever stop being a writer, even if I tried to quit. Knowing that is nice, but it doesn’t help me with my main problem: the physical act of writing, specifically, finishing a novel. It is quite possible that I’m not cut out to write novels. It is a lot, a lot, a lot of work, and as I said before, my life and brain are not wired to do anything that requires good habits and personal discipline. But I still love doing it, even if I’m not great at getting it done.

When I dug deeper, I realized I was putting a lot of pressure on myself to conform to this idea that I have of what being a writer is, and that by not living up to that imagined standard, I’ve opened up this floodgate of guilt and doubt. I’ve structured my life in such a way that the things that I believe need doing, for both the wider world and the people in my life, should take the top priority, not writing.

But if writing isn’t my most important thing, does that mean it is just my hobby? Does that mean I don’t take it seriously enough? Does that mean that because I don’t treat writing like a job, I won’t ever “make it” (whatever that means to me)?

These questions bothered me until I removed the self-imposed pressure. And once removed, the answer I discovered was: Who cares! So what if my writing looks like just a hobby on the outside; I know I take it seriously, even if I can’t devote as much time to it as I wish I could. I also know that I’d rather my novel take me way longer to complete than to give it up all together.

So I’ve decided to stop pressuring myself to be the kind of writer that I am not and to stop feeling guilty when things aren’t happening as quickly as I would like them to. I know what kind of outcome I would like to see when I finish my novel, and I’ve set goals for myself, but I have also made peace with the fact that this valley may be all I experience for a while.

I’ve decided to enjoy the journey instead of fretting about when it will end. I will do what I set out to accomplish, even if it takes longer than my doubt tells me it should.

Doubting myself is okay, but I won’t allow my doubts to tell me who or what I am.

I am a writer, one thought, one word, at a time.

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[Review] Andromeda (God-Haunted #1) by Meg Trotter

Title: Andromeda ~~ Author: Meg Trotter
Series: God-Haunted ~~ Release Date: 07/12/2016
Source: publicist
FTC Disclosure: I accepted this review copy free of charge and received no compensation for my fair and honest review.

From Goodreads:

For as long as she can remember, seventeen-year-old Princess Andromeda has done what was expected of her. She consented to a political marriage to a hateful older man. She became a quiet, obedient housewife. After her husband’s death, she agreed to be united in yet another political marriage for the sake of her country’s stability.

However, when the Greek goddess of the sea disrupts this second wedding ceremony, jealous of the pomp of the celebration, she places a curse on Andromeda and her home: either sacrifice the princess to a sea beast or let the creature destroy her country. A visit to the Oracle reveals that Andromeda needs four ancient weapons of the Greek gods to fight off the beast and the goddess who controls it.

Now Andromeda must find the strength and the cunning to do what she has never done before — to fight for her own life — while keeping the well-meaning “hero” Perseus out of her way.

PREFACE:
I am extremely excited to be writing this review. If you’ve been around this blog for a while, you’ve seen many mentions of my bestie Meg of Myth-illogical. This is her book! Yay! I’m so glad to be able to share with you all my love of this book. I’ve loved it for years, but next month it will finally be available for all to read. Meg isn’t my friend that just happened to write a book – she is a (great!) writer that became my friend (we met at a creative writing group of which we two were the youngest and instantly bonded over our love of Harry Potter and love/hate of Twilight).

So let’s get to the business where I tell you how awesome Andromeda is!

WRITING:
From the get-go, information, description, dialogue, and voice are all balanced to paint a vivid picture of every scene. It felt like I had a movie playing in my head, a movie that was funny, interesting, and exciting. No dialogue or description felt extraneous, I felt the tension of the action scenes, and I simply did not want to put it down (and considering I had read many previous versions, that’s saying something!).

SETTING:
There is a lot of YA involving Greek mythology out there, but I’ve not come across many that are set in the original time period, probably because it’s hard to get right. I know how much research went in to this novel because of this, and it was 100% worth it. I was blown away by how easily I could imagine every place.

A lot of the time, setting is something that is just in the background that I don’t pay much attention to, but in Andromeda the settings almost felt alive. As I mentioned before, the amount of description was just right and made me feel like I was right there with the characters. I have a hard time picking which setting was my favorite, but it’s probably between the Underworld, Medusa’s island, Delphi. I also loved the scenes at the Parthenon, but I’ve been to the replica Parthenon in Nashville many times so I feel like it has an unfair advantage.

CHARACTERS:
Speaking of characters, I love this cast so much. Andromeda is right at the top of favorite YA heroines for me. She is stuck in a terrible situation, and once she breaks free of it, she does absolutely everything in her power to keep that freedom. She refuses to wait around on the “heroes” to save or help her. I loved every moment when she gave a man what-for because she wasn’t being proper, pointing out that she had bigger things to worry about than proprieties. And while being a grade-A bad-ass, she is also caring and compassionate.

Perseus is a character made of more quiet strength than Andromeda. He tries to do what is right, is respectful and sensitive, but when someone he cares for is hurt, watch out! I loved how ready he was to jump into any fray and how, despite being doubted by everyone around him, rose to each occasion. I loved that he was both physically and morally strong without being a macho-tough-guy.

Zeth was probably the most surprising character for me. He comes across as typical of the time-period, valuing heroes and dismissive of anything a woman could offer on something like a dangerous quest. He’s also a poet and his attempts at recording the trio’s adventures were hilarious and so very wrong. I loved his buddy relationship with Perseus and how he and Andromeda bickered every chance they got. He also had the most growth of the characters, and that was really nice to see.

The villain of the story, Amphitrite, is a little on the typical side for a bad guy, but considering she is a Greek goddess, she was right on par for what you’d expect of that lot. But my favorite thing about her was her physical description, which sounds weird, but it was one of the coolest ways to present a character that I’ve ever seen and I loved it.

Beyond the main cast, all of the other characters felt fully-formed, from Andromeda’s friends and family to the various gods and goddesses and monsters. But there is one other character that I can’t go without mentioning because my love for him knows no bounds: Hades. He only has a very small part in this story, but from my very first glimpse of this novel, I have loved Hades. I’ve literally been saying I HEART HADES for years because of this book. I cannot wait to read more of his snarky wit in future novels.

DOWNSIDE:
The only minor thing I found while reading this is that Andromeda gets hurt. A lot. Granted, a lot of the injuries happen while she is fighting or something like that, but she’s also very jumpy. Thinking a bit more on it now, it could be because of her life with her first husband, which if so, is really sad and further goes to show how strong she is.

COOL STUFF:
Beyond Hades being the coolest of the cool, I absolutely loved every little wink to Greek mythology, especially when the characters would say something off-hand that referenced the original Perseus myth. Between that, the humor, and the many well-thought out actions scenes, I was giddy while reading this book. It was just so much fun while still being surprising in how it differed from the source material.

VERDICT:
If you couldn’t tell by my gushing all over this review, I love this book. The great writing, fantastic settings, action aplenty, and fun twists make this a book not to miss. Andromeda is the epitome of an amazing heroine, being cunning, kind, and feisty simultaneously, and the dynamics between her, Perseus, and Zeth make them a trio I want to adventure with again and again and again.

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